Hidey Ho, Neighbor!

Hello, my friends!

I suppose that now would be the right time to introduce myself, as well as the purpose of this blog. I'm The Amber Raven (call me The Raven) and I am the founder of this project. I am fifteen years of age, and I have been writing seriously since I was fourteen. Before that, I didn't write much unless I had an assignment from school.

I have been home schooled on and off since the fifth grade, which I skipped. (Kinda.... It's complicated. :P) I was in public/charter school for half of middle school, and I have only tried public school once for high school. I am now in the tenth grade.

Next year, I intend to take one-two college courses at a local community college. I'm aiming for Sociology or Psychology, as I would like to become a Psychologist one day. Or maybe creative writing.

For the moment, I'm keeping my options open. XP

Now, I'll stop my rambling and get to the real point of this post: my reasons behind creating this blog.

Actually, I've been thinking of making some sort of meaningful blog for awhile now, I just didn't know what the purpose of it would be. And then, a few days ago, it clicked. I could make a blog for the gifted and anyone else who was interested in learning about the gifted! It was the perfect project for my Psych class, as well as for recreation.

So, I asked around. I asked all of my 'gifted' internet buddies if they were interested in participating.... and thus 'Wanderers and Seekers' was born.

You know, I've never really had meaningful friends before. Sure, I've had friends that I considered as close, but it was never really true. There is something about me, about my personality, that makes it very difficult to connect to most regular people... and it's not like the world is completely full of people that I can relate to.

On average, my friendships are short, shallow, and... meaningless. There's a certain depth in friendship that I long for, and while I have attained friendships such as these, they don't typically last for very long.

A few months ago, I started a journey of true self discovery. I wanted to know how I am the way I am, and why. I wanted to know why I couldn't seem to make meaningful relationships, and why I always felt so isolated, despite the fact that my personality is extremely open and bubbly. Admittedly, I am a chipper person, though I don't know how much of that is truly me, and how much of it is an act.

I looked around, first deciding that I had Aspergers Syndrome. I show quite a few of the characteristics, but there were certain things that didn't fit. And then I remembered something: in the fourth grade, I was tested into the Gifted and Talented program. However, we moved away a few months later, so I hadn't really considered before.

And so I looked up the characteristics of the gifted, and I may or may not have teared up a little. It described me... from how my mind works, all the way down to how emotionally hypersensitive I am.

By that time, I already had quite a few interweb writing buddies, and most of them were as brilliant as the sun in summer. We identified with each other well, despite my ignorance of the fact that I was 'gifted'.

I have always felt so alone, so isolated. It was nice to know that I'm not just an oddity.

And when I look back, I realize how sad and lost I was, how I wandered around, searching for someone, anyone to accept me as I am. I still feel that way sometimes.

I don't want anyone to feel that way.

Now I have friends. People that I can speak to about anything from Psychology to how far away the stars are. It feels so amazing to not be alone anymore.

When it all comes down to it, this is why I created this blog: so that everyone can feel accepted, no matter who they are, no matter what problems they face.

And I hope that I can journey with all of you, no matter where this crazy, capricious world takes us.

With all of my love,

~The Raven